Date:         Mon, 6 Nov 2000 22:33:34 -0600
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Organization: Paradigm Graphic Design
Subject:      Am I sick?
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My CD/stereo was stolen from my Vanagon (speakers too) last week. I'm
guessing the window did not break by striking it so they stuck a crow
bar near the lower left corner by the lock and prrrrryyyyyyd the window
until it popped. It bent the window jam inside and out.

Here I sit. 160,000+ miles, a little rust and a dent here and there  -
and wounded Vanagon with plastic over the window. Is it time to "let it
go" (my fourth bus/vanangon)? What can I buy? Test drove a few things.
Don't like anything. Nothing. Absolutely nothing.  Not even (god forbid)
a sports car.

If I decided to keep it, that means total rust, dent and paint job. That
means $$$. That also means it is not a daily driver anymore. Part of
this decision would be to drive my wife's S-10 pickup 60 miles back and
forth to work everyday (bite the bullet). Then get her a another
car/truck and save the Van for summer weekends, van shows and vacation
trips. In the garage it goes. No more 20,000 a year in daily travel. I
am asking myself: Is it worth it?

Can I live without driving my Vanagon everyday? Will I lose my identity?
My soul? It just so damn fun to drive. I probably will not get my money
out of it in the future. Maybe 15 more years from now? Maybe some. Does
it matter? But I just can't give it up (I'm laying on my back on the
couch now). Am I sick? God help me!

But then I thought to myself: "What else is there in life?" Really. You
know what I mean?. What else is there? Kids are grown and almost gone. I
mean hey: what else is there?

Scrapbook pics so you can feel my pain:
http://www.roesner.net/vw/rear.jpg
http://www.roesner.net/vw/front.jpg

I need an asprin...i think I'm gonna keep it...I think.

Thanks for listening. Really.

--
Lee Roesner
Paradigm Graphic Design & Web Development
710-B Landwehr Road
Northbrook, IL 60062

Phone 847-509-8704
Fax 847-480-5701
Portfolio: http://www.roesner.net/vw
Email: mailto:paradigm@mc.net